thoughts

here it comes the second week,

too quick, too fast, running out of time.

however at this busy moment i made a silly decision to chill,

worked on a few home works and didn't even touch the rest of my assignment.

bad bad bad. need to work harder tomorrow

i just realised that i hate school so much with the passion,

hate it so much. maybe it’s just the lack of time that i have so much to finish

or maybe i really did get sick of it after all those years.

recently i have been have so many thoughts about many things, such as lives and relationships,

and even attitudes towards things are surround by.

these thinking or 'knowledge'  just like water pouring into my brain.

the problem is i couldn't get most of these thoughts through, i couldn't think of the further 'solution' or an answer that satisfied myself.

which is leading me all these obstacles in the process of my art major,

that i have decided to work on something quick dark of the other side of human begins or even myself,

but i am just stuck with my own thinking. i could not create something so meaningful and strong through my works, feel like i need to read or expirence heaps to answer my own 'questions' towards to lead me to finish my artworks.

i have confusion with different people telling me different things,

my current art teacher told me i have to express myself and the 'body of work' has to have a certain of meaning or theme behind it- which that is "Fine arts", however my subject only named 'Visual arts'

and which my other drawing teacher told me, what i have been doing is commercial art,

it has to be something pretty, attractive, eye catching and cute, and that what he has been teaching.

so what i am doing right now has to be expressional and conceptual?

so commercial arts does not apply to my major works? does not apply to this school's definition of 'art'.

i know this sounds childish but as an artist, should i be confuse at this stage when i should already be sure with what i am doing shouldn’t i??

ahhhh....

oh i was finally practicing my chinese writing this week by copying the news on the internet,

it took me so long to write coz i had to look up each time i write a word (not joking, i could not remember the details of the characters)

i will put up a photo tomorrow =p

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see all the black holes, they are how many words i wrote wrong =p

my new love ♥  she is awsome ;D

still reading the instruction booklet.