who is angel ? who is devil ?

In spite of the Xanga blog, I started this blog not only because of my idol is using Yahoo blog. There is another reason behind. It is that sometimes I want to write something my friends, almost all using Xanga, would not read.

I wish I could be stronger so that the devils have no chance to attack me..... I am no longer being protected by family/ school..... I got to protect myself..... but I could not deny I am too ignorant about this world .... and I dare not go explore this big big world........ alone....

would there be a guide to light my way out .... in the darkness......

that's enough...... I just want a stronger body and no more medicine.......

please ...

I am tired of taking those pills every night and

I am tired of the taste of purple and red-colored pills..... 

I am scared of my emotions out of control .......

I have no faith .... and I am too weak