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未試過咁無把握的去考ballet exam......未試過對於考試如此沒confidence,仲想give up......
自7月中一次上ballet的時候,因為工作上的一些不快,加上比人激完之後精神上的疲累, 令自己跳舞時一個不小心, 就係一個jete elance, 拉親條大脾筋>.< 沒在意這小小的injury,沒即時treat佢,第二日仲照去跳舞, 過了幾天仲痛就草草去看acupuncture.....仲keep住上堂無rest過......點知佢一路都唔好,轉左睇中醫,又睇sports massage,又睇筋骨推拿.....睇極都唔好,個人都好stress好depress, 攪到個胃唔好,睇埋個胃照埋胃鏡-->gastritis >.<
跟住又分左手......成個人都好down.....瘦左差唔多8磅.....
除著時間既過去, 大脾筋既問題好左d, 不過同時間亦放棄左好多練習既時間同機會,堂係照上,但連最basic既turn out都痛,咩都練唔到.....唔turn out咁練,結果就係另一樣injury....今次係個metatasal!!!! metatasal有觸電既感覺?!!! 攪咩呀.......同一個classroom,人地好地地無野,自己就腳傷跳唔到,有次做foutte turns, 老師都知我死頂叫我唔好跳,我坐左o係一邊, 望住同學仔轉,心里很酸,平時成日笑的我,終忍不住哭了.....
真的很傷心.....連返工都無咩心機.....
10月既表演完左, 想了很久, 一直都無停過跳舞, 到了這一刻, 真的覺得自己不能再繼續下去,於是決定停一個星期.....一個星期後,好像沒什麼improvement,於是再rest多一個星期.....
緣份之下o係internet search到一個曾經幫hong kong ballet既dancers做physio既physiotherapist: jenny, 於是就去左搵佢......
如是者rest了三個多星期,到了11月,傷係未好,但係都想再試下跳番舞,仲係死心不息想考solo seal!
起初自己都十五十六,唔知考唔考solo seal好,因為係成個process當中,自己反思左好多,到底我跳ballet為咩? 為左個exam,令到自己咁唔開心, 點解仲要繼續? 很contradictory.....每一次跳舞我都好gan,有時佢唔痛,但有時又可以痛到訓緊覺都會痛醒.....
不過overall黎講, 腳仔係比之前好左好多既:) 我唸我如果唔係遇到jenny,我唔會頂得住,仲有機會考到呢個試! 雖然今次自知practice得唔夠,考到既機會好微,不過唔緊要喇,因為今次既experience令我明白左自己既問題,點樣去防止dance injury,同埋有問題既時候點樣去manage(-->就係去搵jenny:p haha......)
thank you jenny, my physio and my friend:D
no matter wt the result will be, i've strived my best and there is no regrets:) and this solo seal exam was so unforgettble for me coz it happened on my birthday: 13 December!! how coincident:P
Jenny the Physio 2009-12-17 11:32
I tried to reply once yesterday, but when entering the fxxking HTML code, all my reply was deleted!!!!
Anyway, from your article, it sounds like there were lots of unhappy things happened to u this year. Same as me, this year is so "eventful".
But still, think positive!
If not for the internet and the physio treatment, we will not become friends, rite?
So nevermind and let go la! ^_^
念火 2009-12-16 06:06
Rachel Kwan 2009-12-15 10:26
Solo Seal is a super great experience, and not all students got this opportunity to do it.
Just tried you best, and everything will be fine!
No worries! Enjoy your dance! Enjoy the process! Dance makes you forget all the sadness and tiredness, you can be what you want to be with dancing!
Cheer up!!!