Regretting my hasty decision

Happy chinese New Year Everyone! I'm so happy to be back in Singapore to celebrate it with my friends, as well as have the last two months of rest and reflections... I am actually facing lots of stress and unhappiness, but friends do give me lots of strength to carry on.. When you're not in it, u wish for it... but once u're in it, u kinda regret alot... Outsiders see envy, hope and expectations..

Thinking back, my decision was right and wrong in many ways... he was just 20 points smarter than me, I just gave up and decided to take the easy way out, wishing for childish dreams.. I should have kept focus, taken one step at a time and work towards it, instead of diverting my attention everywhere..

But then again, if I had persevered, results may not have been what I wanted.. and I doubt my abilities to go through what he went through too..

 i hope YOU READ THIS AND TELL ME WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME BEING SIDELINE YA..

Anyway, I'll just try to stay with the main goal in head, and put in the effort I should have put in... No doubt alot of discipline will be required, but Mr King don't worry i will prove that tigress wrong.. Next year will be better for me with the freedom to do things alone, and meet friends outside of house... Just put in the effort, I will reap the results soon.. the respect, the status.

Anyway, CNY was usual, visiting, less visiting this year coz they came to the house instead. Economy's been down, not doing so fine right now, but not to worry, I will return everything asap.. give me a couple of years man..

My entries always makes sense when I'm typing, but when i read back, they sound rather strange.. hehe.. sorry readers, no wonder my usual readers have run away ;) no pictures to see summore.. hahaha..

waaaaaa why did i slackkkk./.