It wears me out

從小被教多勞多得, 一分耕耘一分收穫. 中學開始知道這是假話, 永遠都不可能這麼公平. 有特權的人會利用特權保護自己的特權, 排擠別人擁有公平的機會.

It wore me out. 讀書時只要懂背就會高分, 明白理解不會有回報. 求學就是求分數. 高分低能拿獎學金鼓勵他成為了一個底能.
It wears me out. 每事件總想公平, 只會愈想愈不憤, 唯有習慣. 坐著, 等結果, 等收取別人的回報. 回報是勤力的人一倍. 不單沒output, 還拖就大家. 結果是回報高零付出.

為了生存, 大家都假. 沒有對錯, 為了生存.
習慣了假, 甚至連感情都假. 一切一切都可以像粉筆字抺去, 沒有過去, 沒有留痕.

Welcome to a fake world.


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以前在blog都出過這首歌.

一首很有feel 的歌, 第一次聽一定會睡著. 第二次聽歌詞, 第三次聽唱音樂molody, 第四次聽結他, 第五次聽feel.

Fake Plastic Trees, Radiohead

Her green plastic watering can
For her fake Chinese rubber plant
In the fake plastic earth.
That she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber plans
To get rid of itself.
It wears her out, it wears her out
It wears her out, it wears her out.

She lives with a broken man
A cracked polystyrene man
Who just crumbles and burns.
He used to do surgery
For girls in the eighties
But gravity always wins.
And it wears him out, it wears him out.
It wears him out, it wears . . .

She looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My fake plastic love.
But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run.
And it wears me out, it wears me out.
It wears me out, it wears me out.

And if I could be who you wanted
If I could be who you wanted
All the time, all the time.
Oh, oh.