im tired

been together with kenneth for 25 days, he has been staying with me for 20 some days?!

sometimes i think this change is a little too much, i am getting clusterphobic now.

gradually becoming not too happy, this is too much like husband and wife's life style,i am not ready, i am not happy, i want to back out.

i dont like the responsibility of cooking, buying groceries,of being a wife.

i am not ready.

i know that.

but what  else am i ready for?

i dunno.