What I think of lately...

It's been coming up my mind lately about my latest life comparing to few years time. It's more like "before" and "after". When I was a student I have to study bloody hard, I'm not a genious in academic and I forced myself to go so hard, in return of further study opportunities. Next after my graduation I do whatever I can to make money, unluckily it's so damn hard to earn, and I saved just a little bit of money. I got steady with somebody, while my feeling deep down my heart is more like "Everyone needs a companion so get steady with somebody else step by step as everybody's life go like that..." it makes me struggle so much and I think, "is that what our life starts and ends all in the same way"?

Likewise whenever u get rich u simply buy a flat, get a car, get marry with your life partner, give birth to baby, feed them and raise them, provide education, watching them off to repeat your life pattern... it's kinda looping, but did u think whether it's right or wrong, suits u or not!?

It varies definitely for different type of persons. I just think I'm currently pursuiting something I really want to, try to join my puzzles together to get a nice future picture of mine. Looking back of the few years of my life before I didn't feel regret in my decision making, that's me, I gotto choose what I want, it's not like "I don't have anything to choose", I face my life more truly and cleary now with my thought goes so smooth right now, thank god!