Drama Queen

公司人多，琴日有一刻諗住走入廁所避一避，點知一閂門就有教官入嚟痾屎，頂！諗住同Karen落Accounts散下心，卒之行到成身濕哂。不過要特別鳴謝Eva媽媽聽我講咗成日故事。今日決定閉關練功，恢復一下元氣。未至於捨得一次過掉哂所有message，但睇番時已無咩事。其實琴晚通電話前已想得好清楚，而佢的說話更幫咗一個大忙，不過自己有啲貪心，反而想去番square one，停留喺嗰個stage。

清理手機垃圾時，順道睇番之前同一個drama queen的來回SMS，諗起成件事有幾咁激氣同好笑。曾經同佢傾過幾日MSN，但後來已delete佢。上星期有晚佢hi我，傾咗一陣。翌日十點幾，佢又hi我，但我趕住走：「have to go now, chat later!」無等佢回應就閂機。門口都未出，佢就開始send SMS嚟鬧我，我唔抵得俾人鬧，keep住回應，煩咗我幾個鐘。唔知佢做咩打字咁快，可以一口氣連續3、4個SMS一齊嚟；有時佢話唔再講，咁我唔理佢啦，轉下頭又繼續吠。有時間可一睇，都幾好笑：

(我offline之後的3分鐘及打後3個鐘的對話)
佢：Didn't know u were gone. u have a nice day!
(當時未知個感歎號有嬲怒的意思，只以為佢比較熱情。點知一分鐘都無…)
佢：well, when u leave, it is nice to let others know u r going. This is respect!
佢：I hve told u my first impression is very important. Its hasn't been good so far, So, have a nice day!
(鬧完我就想bye bye？無咁易，於是我reply佢啦，點知就liu起佢條孖筋喇…)
我：Well I did leave u messages on msn b4 I logged off. The impression u gave me wasn't good neither.
佢：Mr. I didn't now u had to go, ok? think before u blame me.
我：I share computers with colleagues, when they wanna use it to work, I wouldnt make them wait just cos im on msn.
(心水清的觀眾應該知道我當時極其量只是喺火車)
佢：Trust me, if this kind of conversation carries like this…
(咁請問會點呢？成個過程佢就係咁樣以為我好希罕佢，好驚激嬲佢)
佢：I have made my attempt to u so u think what u want to do
佢：I think I know why we didn’t chat before!
佢：Im having a day off today and I want to enjoy the day. We can either carry the chat nicely or we can end it. U make the choice.
佢：Just one more thing. Last nite I spent time to chat with u cz I think u r nice. I had that in mind last nite, until this morning
(佢一個一個SMS咁send嚟，我根本冇回應，亦都回應唔切，但又忍唔到…)
我：Again, I had to rush so I left a message to tell u to chat later, and I just couldn't wait for ur response.
佢：Ok, now u have explain. Im sorry. This is what I call communication
我：This is not! U didn't even gimme one second to tell u what was going on and u fired ur gun right at me. And maybe that's WHY we stopped chatting last time! U were just rude and unreasonable
佢：So lets start again? Have you had lunch yet?
(轉得好快…)
佢：So do u want to chat or not? What u want?
佢：I cant read your mind. I have been sending msgs to u. honestly I don’t know what u want. Why been nice before and things hve changed.
我：Things changed after u exploded. How can u not know??
佢：Ok. now I get it. I m sorry to bother u. Thankx for letting me know.
佢：Then I guess no point talking anymore rite?
我：For me, not now. I cant be yelled at then smile like nth happened
佢：Ok, I will leave now. Life must go on. Thx for your time. I hve made an attempt so I hv no regret
(無端端咩事Life must go on???!!!)
我：Me neither. Have a nice day
佢：Whats wrong with u?
佢：I hv said sorry and u don't care abt it
佢：And its not just my fault
我：Checked ur history to see how rude u were. u cant just expect me to be ok after u said "sorry"
佢：I hv done what I hv to do. Don't u get it? I even ask u back
(我係咪要喊？)
佢：So I don't get a second chance?
我：I didn't say goodbye, online, and u already made it such big a deal.
佢：I apologize to what I hv done and why r u acting like this? One day and I m dead?
佢：I know we have probs but can we try to wk it out?
(無端端又講到拍咗十年拖咁！)
佢：Is it no matter what I do, u wont talk to me? Can we just try not to argue?
佢：I m sorry. What can I do to make it up?
我：I only wanna chat with someone who is able to or at least willing to communicate.
佢：I m willing to communicate with u. I really am. I want u to believe me. Plz
佢：And I do mean it. Plz believe me. And anything I can do to make it, I will do it. Just don't go, ok?
我：Relax
佢：Ok, txt me when u want and I believe u will txt me later