losing the interest in doing anything.. losing the spirit of fighting to do something..
my weekend just passed aimlessly by. Like water dripping very slowly. one by one. dot dot dot.
I don't wish to use my brain. do anything. The more i think, the harder i thought..it's not going to work out.
the doctor got me right. I get anxious pretty easily. and it takes a long time for me to be comfortable in a new setting. with new people.
my feelings confused me again. is admiring or really liking?
Is respecting or ...feelings?
I don't know.
my life feels really like wasting my days away. wasting my energy, my youth, my spirit.
if getting married is a stage of life, why do i have to follow the path? by doing that, probably i just want to prove my worthiness to people around me.
i still haven't let it go. never. ever. and i am still suffering. from it. confidence, makeover, it is just a shell to hide my true self. In it, rotten smelly stale pumping heart.
alot of things remain silence.
My blank face signifies the message: "please leave me alone' don't bother me with any stuff.
I'm so gonna freaking explode soon. i don't know how i'm gonna walk out my way. i could save people but i can't save myself. what the hell is all these? bothering me? stop it. the minus sign thought. sound interesting but putting up a show. attracting people is so tiring and time consuming, then why the need to put in effort to maintain the relationship? i need personal space, freedom and thinking. don't ever intrude in my area and boundary. i will scream and throw out in front of you. and this is the side you don't wish to see me. probably no body could take it except my mum and sis. HAHA they already used to it.
thirst for a break. a rest. a fun time. with familiar faces of people.
over the weekend, i had a crazy time with my uncle and my cousin.
It's been such a long time i have...
i need a eye dropper to revive the red lines in my eyes. I need eye mask to lighten up my dark eye ring after a whole day in the centre.
This week was revision week, but there...
Seriously I am stuck in a contradicting position.
Starting from week 5 onwards my work is very dull and conduct lesson sounds like absoloutely like a routine. It's plain, ...
Alright, i'm sick and recovered after a week. it's really long..this time.
My throat is getting worse since monday. Saturday, sunday..sat was totally a hectic and disas...
tuesday, signify 2 day of work had passed for this week.
Going on to the last week of May, it knocked on my head a bit hard that i''m in my 2 month of working.
These ...
Feeling guilty because Arthur's finger is clamped by hien without my proper supervision.
His finger hurts pretty bad, there's a deep cut and it became swollen not long ...
Today was very tiring for me..cos yesterday night i watched "boys before flowers" till 1 pm and early in the morning I have to leave my bed to catch the bus to centre....
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