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Being in my house for exactly two days. I am still in the dream of my wonderland...

everything just go back to normal. I find it somehow meaningless...to a certain extent.

When i was doing teaching in the village, and in the school, i feel that my life is occupied with meaningful task and i wish to maintain ..the feeling of being on task.

There are so much things i want to talk about.

Tomorrow i will see him again. it might not be something we expected.

we might have different perception of each other. it might alter the way we feel for each other....and our promise, our feelings might just disappear..like puddles of water eventually being evaporated.

I am scare, unsure, uncertain, but there is nothing i can do.

my friend encourage me to try it out. Let go of all those rigid mindset...and old thoughts.

Anyway, I must learn how ..to deal with it. I have been alone in my own world for the past 21 years. Now it's time for me to care for another one....

learning....trying...learning...trying...

I hope god will support me as well. please do, need your support, luck and everything.