Now that I have resigned but ...

Oh ! Lord !

Now that I have resigned but ...

my nightmare has not yet ended

my hatred for some has not yet gone

my tiresome works have not yet been done

my worries have not yet been stopped

most importantly 

some of my senses have not yet been back

Three months !  What a loooooooooooooooong period !!! 

If I care little about the money that both my husband and I stupidly care about,

my pain and sorrows should have been stopped right now !

But I do need that money for healing my bones and joints. 

I have already accepted the fact that

many women are not truly loved these days

and then we become more and more unlovable.

I hate myself !  And I even haven't been to Church.

Oh ! Lord !

No more parentheses please

or feelings of the like

for us both

Amen