驚醒

失落感...

到底要追求什麼工作, 才能得到滿足呢? 我一直在問自己.

薪俸? 工作環境? 工作時間? 人際關係? 前景優良? 還是...安逸?

身邊的好友, 同是同屆的畢業生, 薪酬都高過自己五成以上了. 在社會打滾了五年, 兜兜轉轉, 始終沒有以自己的專業找工作, 試這個那個, 學了一身武藝, 卻無用武之地, 多麼的諷刺.

懷才不遇嗎? 如果我是才, 就不會落得這結果吧. 只能說, 自己太幼稚, 大學時沒有想清楚前路, 混沌地過了這數年, 現在回看, 一切都好像太遲了.

今天公司宣佈我升職了, 但對我來說, 這是一個打擊. 再一次, 令我覺得前途灰暗, 因為薪酬跟本沒加過多少. 升職而不加薪, 對我來說, 是一種羞辱. 因為這證明我在公司跟本不值什麼錢, 只是弄個東西來逗你開個玩笑吧.

當天, 我累了, 我選擇了安逸, 放棄了拼搏. 今天, 我承受了貪圖逸樂這結果.

人大了, 成熟了.

不可以, 真的不可以, 再這樣浪費寶貴的青春.

我要努加向上, 要進步!!!

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Feeling of loss ....

Actually, what kind of job I pursuit indeed and thus I can feel satisifcation? I keep on asking myself.

Salary? Working environment? Working hour? Interpersonal relationship? Good prospect? or...stable?

Friends around me who graduated in the same year mostly have a salary of 50% higher than me. Being work and fight for these 5 years, tuning round and around, I still haven't worked in my professional field. Although I had learnt many different skills by trying different jobs, I can't use it at all. Isn't it a joke for me?

Am I a talent but it's just nobody knows yet? It's bull shit if I was a talent with this consequence. What I wanna say is, I am too naive to think about my career path at the time when I was in the university. And now, looking back myself in the past years, it seems to be too late to regret about it.

Today, my company announced my promotion. For me, it's nothing worth to be happy. It's just pushing me down. I feel grey about my career path as my salary just increase a tiny amount. It's a real shame of me as it proved that I don't worth anything in this company. Just making a well-named title to make fun for me.

I remember on that day, I said I am tired, so I chose a stable job instead of an aggressive job. And today, I deserve the consequence for what I had chosen.

I should have been grown up. I have to be more mature!

No way!!! Indeed!!! I can't waste my golden time again anymore!

It's time to fight for improving my life!