tear is dropping from the eyes
slowly go thought the face...
and enter to the arm..
think of her again~
why not save her at 1st ?
no matter what she said..
i should plz her to stay with me ...
& now..when i cry
will be have a hug
will be have someone care
why i just can't have other happiness ??
i am helping Winnie to drawing for her wedding
why ..i need to do that
this mean to me
is it ...
just give me a taste of how a wedding really work
just feel i am poor
so give the chance to me
is that what ... it mean ???
i also..want
to spend time with Vincent birthday
but i just can't
i also want have dinner with him
but i just can't
so..what do u want me to do???
u all just mean to me
just no one understand how i feel
who said i want put up my sad face
i don't want
but my heart feeling pain
don't u all know ?
i am not asking for too much already
i giving up everything
what do still want me to do ???
not ever cry ????
God ..
i know ..
everything now is the best already
i am ok
and thank you for everything
take care my family for 5 yr ...
already done many ...
the road..just could be like this...
maybe i really asking for too much
maybe 安慰 not ever a thing i desire ...
there were nothing i could have...
i compare with other too much...
ever little thing with him...
what..blog..email..facebook...
silly me..all just not real
but i am begging .......
is ok...
i cry for all of u
and u all laugh for me ..
just let me have all the unhappy
sine no one will heart broke
ever i cry like to die....
like u all said ..
i should stronger...
i act to hard already..
strong enough yet ?
turning around when i cry..
not facing anyone and anymore...
happy ???
i begging u all happy ....
culture or family..
is just an excuse...
if i really have heart
i should go online..
& bought an air ticket..
which fly back to hk tom~
can i...or will i???
i just hate myself..
never have courage to do anything
i just stupid....
if really..
i can spend time with him on his birthday...
why i just stupid...
if really ...
everyone will said
i just like a kid...don't think of faraway
and what will happen....
something think too much
but not go ahead.... and do
maybe...that already not a thing
i really wish to do...
just like...
when ppl are for ur name
u wont think...
coz. u already know ur name....
beside...
when ppl ask u for dinner
u will think..
coz. u don't really want to have dinner (maybe)
or for other reason.....
if something
i really wish to do..
i won't just sit here and type...
and wish..
and hope
and beg
and bless
and pray
right?
orange :(
