a nightmare shift..!!

果條咁既廢柴真係又癈又無腦!!!

成個八婆咁，咁忙既時候仲係度調查有冇人講佢壞話，fuck佢老鼠啦!

邊樣重要d都未識分，點做人supervisor呀!

無料到啦佢~! 同佢講道理都o徒gas!

以後，一d唔關工作既事，唔駛答佢，咩都唔知唔清楚，扮英文唔好聽唔明意思....

就中架喇~~ 呢d咁八卦既人，唔答佢仲令佢想死!

他媽的老豆老母fucking all啦!

嗯....

至於抉擇問題.....

首先，時間得半年，你就返hk，so做邊度都一樣! 你都係要返hk架啦，

每個地方留住你既時間都係半年，公平丫，千其唔好俾感情分累事，

以為新地方，學完野就走，唔好意思.....係舊既地方走，無晒人，又好似唔係咁負責任...

no!

你唔會係呢度做成世架，答案始終都係走，

所以，千其唔好考慮呢d因素。

至於人事上，間間公司都有騎呢人存在，

只係佢地會以唔同分類出現，

有d麻煩騎呢到呢唔信，

世上真係有呢d人，俾你遇到，其實係你彩數，因為個天要你學習同呢d人相處，

唔係話要相親相愛做到老友，

而係工作崗位上，點樣可以smooth d去解決問題，

呢d好高學問，要不斷去學....失敗再企返起身再學過，

所以人事上，遇到既fucky man同埋k小時，但唔難保julian果邊都會有個未知騎呢人，

呢d問題走唔甩架喇，考慮因素唔可以放得太重。

你需要優先考慮係你對你有value問題，

你最想羅d咩經驗？學d咩對你有幫助？有d咩想趁呢個機會去試下？

試對人事？試工作？試skill? 試個人能力？試個人EQ?

自己有信心應付係D乜？

咩係你既強項？

仲有，每個人都會有個習慣，好怕轉環境，

要去改變，其實有阻力，

原因就係懶，懶得去改變，懶得去適應新野，

考慮因素時，

睇下自己有冇因為呢點而影響判斷。

跟住問問自己，其實個心鐘意做邊度.......

~~過左一陣~~

我出返去個venue度clear glasses, 再拎個tray去個glass washer度, matt 咁岩又係拎左d glasses, 所以佢係我前面..

跟住佢忽然間好認真咁同我講"yuki can i ask u a question?"

我以為佢做乜咁認真.. 我咪話"yes, what's wrong?"

matt: "do u think i am not working hard enough?"

yuki: "why u suddenly ask that question???"

(我真係唔知點答佢囉..佢又唔係唔做野.. 但係佢就成日敦起個supervisor款, 叫我地做lee 做路..之前d supervisor唔會咁架囉...)

之後我諗左好耐.. 我諗, 唔係因為我想諗辦法去cover up 任何野..

雖然過左離4年, 我仍然唔敢講我可以百份百用英文表達我自己..

我諗左一陣先答, 係因為我唔想講左任何唔應該講/會hurt到人既說話

依d野真係唔知架喎.. 我只係唔想佢get錯我既meaning..

咁好啦.. 我諗左好耐究竟應該點答佢..

咁唔通話佢唔做野呀? 佢又唔係唔做野丫嘛, 只係佢既做野方法唔同以前個d supervisor..

同埋因為佢成日講話之前係hyatt做咁咁咁, 又點點點..

但問題係, 我地唔係好似hyatt咁係5star.. 我地有我地一直既做事方法..

咁我答佢 "i understand that u used to work in hyatt and u want to bring their standard here, which is good.. and u do work hard here.. just because the last few supervisors did things different from how you do things now.. but the thing is.. we got our way to do things since long time ago, and it's not that easy to change.. "

matt: "well but jess said i am not workin hard enough.."

yuki: "ok.. i guess becoz we are different from the way you work in hyatt.."

依個係我當時諗到既答案.. 我真係再諗唔到可以點答..

我講完一大輪, 真係唔知佢明唔明, 我真係盡左力.. 我好希望佢唔會get錯左任何野

就算我點唔鍾意佢, 佢點樣唔掂, 我都仲未夠膽去tell him off face to face..

我點敢呀?

之後唔記得佢答乜喇..

跟住...

matt: "anyway,  jess told me that other staff member also said that i am not working hard enough, she didnt tell me who, but i assume that is you becoz you are nervous..well next time, just tell me in person.."

我真係呆左囉..

原來講左咁q耐, 佢淨係想講話我係佢背後講佢壞話..

你有咩證據先? 人地都冇指明係我...

yuki: "what?? ok.. so u think it's me? ok.. i am not gonna say anything now.."

matt: "nonono, i am not saying it's you.. i dunno.. did u say that? just tell me yes or no?"

咩呀, 你明明就認定左係我啦.. 又兜話唔係囉..

yuki: "nonono, what i heard was u saying that i was the one that talkin behind your back.."

matt: "nanana, so yes or no?"

yuki: "i am not saying anything anymore"

之後我行左去..佢又跟住離..

matt:"hey.."

我d眼淚衝出離咁滯..

yuki: "na.. i am not gonna talk about it now.."

之後俾佢見到我流眼淚囉..

matt: "owww.. look at you.."

我心諗"what the fuck you want?"

之後我話"please, can we talk about it later?" 佢先肯放我走...

我頂~~~~~~~~

最慘係仲要同佢一齊做野呀..

跟住我已經迴避佢既眼神... 但係我feel到佢係咁望住我..

之後過左陣佢又走埋離講:"i am sorry.. didnt mean that.." etc etc

我: "can we actually dun talk about it now? can we talk about it when we finish all these?" (執野..)

我真係想爆粗鬧佢囉...

我同jess講乜野係我地兩個人既事..

唔係話一定要講你知囉..

你咪又係人地背後講依個唔好個個唔好?

咁你又有冇講返俾人地知??

低能架囉....

到sign off個陣佢又等我喎..

好啦, 咁講啦..

佢:"so wat do u want to talk to me just now?"

心諗.. 係你成日想同我講野咋喎.. 我唔係好想同你講野架咋喎sorry..

me: "well just to let u know that i was not nervous just now.. and u dun know me.. becoz my english is not good enough, i dun want to say anything wrong.. or i dun want u to get me wrong.."

him: "ok.. i m really sorry"

因為當時有其他人在場.. 我feel到佢想我收聲囉...

fine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

救命, 點會有人問d咁既問題架??

你會唔會當面走去問人"喂, 你有冇係我背後講我壞話呀???"

依家諗返其實喊得好無謂

但係當時真係控制唔到.. d眼淚係衝出離囉

-

又話說, 今日一返工.. 呀k小姐同我講..

佢搵到份新工, 係hyatt既fine dining度做supervisor

佢周圍叫人去做佢個team.. 包括我..

我答佢我會諗下..

經過左今晚同supervisor件事, 我真係唔知我可以忍佢幾耐, 可以同佢一齊做野幾耐..

究竟我應唔應該take the new offer???

yes:

1) 因為hyatt係我屋企對面.. 真係過條馬路就係

2) 始終係hyatt, 係hyatt既experience一定對我返hk搵工有好處.. at least 人地會識hyatt..

3) 我真係驚會頂唔順個supervisor..

no:

1) 唔知大家記唔記得k小姐, 佢真係好moody, 一直都講過佢好bossy.. 如果去左under佢, 就唔知會點...

2) 距離返hk仲有半年.. 如果我依家開始一份新工..都唔知適應完未就要quit...

3) julian一早叫我apply hyatt, 但另一個dept, 如果我依家take左k小姐個offer而唔take julian個個, 好似.... 始終我同julian close d呀.. 同佢一齊返工可能會仲好過同k小姐...

4) fine dining喎.. 唔知自己掂唔掂...

5) 因為依家返緊個度.. 有一個女仔會quit, 另一個就會過檔.. 如果我都走埋, 我唔知個function dept會變成點.. 就咁走左去好似好唔負責任....

其實都幾矛盾.. 走定留呀??? 俾d意見我啦....><

岩岩係度諗..

有冇咁岩呀? 岩岩有人俾個offer我, 咁岩就俾人整喊..

咁岩就有d野令我動搖..令我有少少衝動想quit...

之前julian叫我apply我都有諗過走, 但係又諗, 我都唔會做得耐, 有理由人地train me up我就quit架..

所以冇再諗要quit..

但係今日又有人叫我apply..

唔知係唔係個天俾緊hints我叫我轉工????? :p