Officially freaked out

I went to a career talk by Lovells today abotu application of Trainee contract. Man...i'm so screwed!! After knowing the quality of person that they are looking for, I just don't think I am one of them!?

Communication skills, language, ability to write, self-confidence, certainty about picking the law career, good academic result, team player, self-motivated, .....i'm so not this kind of person!! I really doubt if I've chosen the rigth track. I mean..even if I can fool aroud with good answers in the application form, I dun think i can pass the interview when they really see the real me. Honestly, I dun have the confidence to make people know that i'm confident. It's way more than acting!! Have I chosen the wrong thing again? I mean..even if I work hard and get a 2:1, it doesnt mean I can get a job from city firm. If I aint becomign a lawyer, why the hell do I have to spend so many years on the LL.B, PCLL and stuff? What's the point?

So Lost...so lost...so lost...there's nothing called shuen dou kiu tau ji yin jick. I'm again soooo screwed!!! What do I know about myself?Who am IIIII?????

and just now, i had a cny dinner with the malaysians. damn it, i think i was just like a fool when i was playing the game. I really sucked in english and vocabulary. I still remember when i played pictionary at home home, i did it very well. Now? I'm like..a ..文盲! It's like I'm uneducated. I'm stupid. damn~~ i used to be sooo good in playing any kind of game!! Am i really that fucked up in english? how the hell am I gonna be a solicitor which requires A++language level?!

so screwed, phyllis mok you're so screwed. THe worst part is, there's no way for you to go back. YOU'RE SCREWED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!