it seems nobody could give me the answer
or it may simply mean that i've got the answer and they simply coudnt give me what i wanted
so, it means that i'm dissatisfied with sth that couldnt be satisified by anybody but myself
what should i do to make myself back to the state of harmony again
i dunno
i really dunno
at this moment
i feel so annoyed
annoyed by everything and everybody that pops up in my life
things just popped up and went away
they go and pop up again
it's a lesson that i could never learn well, and this is the reason for its recurrence
i know it by heart, but never get thru it
i felt so annoyed
annoyed by my inner devil
annoyed by the false hope that things will go better if i could choose again
if i have never come back n stay in melb, cont'd with the dull dull study life or if i have never left hk and cont'd to work at the dull dull dept
i always return to the same point of questioning myself
for what i shouldnt ask
as things have happened
it's not possible to ask the what-if again
from cert level econ, we learnt - bygones are bygones
but the sunk costs are the irritating factors that affect human judgement
and that's y we couldnt maximise subject to constraints
these are what economic models couldnt explain
i wish i could just fly away
but there's sth that made me stay
and this is the last resort that i'm willing to obey
coz at the end of the day
i know by heart, the one i wanted is right there today
